You're oh so cute whenever you're being a clown,
and you always seem to clear my face of that frown.
But at times i just dont understand where this is heading,
after all those love nests we've been making.
At times it feels like you really dont wanna stay, no,
but then you say you really dont wanna go.
We used to laugh just about everything,
but now i find you're just oh so plain boring.
I'm really lost as to where this is heading,
but trust me boy,
this feelings i've got;
i aint faking.
OKAYYY. Troubled thoughts here. I swear my heart is playing tricks with my mind right now lahh. Whatever the heart is feeling does not seem to tally with whatever the mind is thinking. Make sense? I dont think so. As fickle-minded as i always am, i know when i'm being beaten by my own emotions. And i'm sure this is just a temporary phase i'm going through. *crosses fingers*
Gawdddd. It always happens to me. Sickening! For once, i just wanna fall for that ONE person and concentrate on just him, without having any doubts nor insecurities. BUT... Other external factors have to kick in and toy with my emotions. Worse still, my fickle-mindedness plays a huge part in all these decision making. Bugger~
Screw complications. Right now i am going to close off all the lights at the ward, go barefooted and indulge myself in tandoori and an abundance of beancurd! Gotta make the best of my last night tonight! Haahaa. Psychiatric unit have all the fun. (:
