"Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done.
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run.
But now I truly realise, some people don't want to compromise.
Thus now, i'm walking away."
My insomnia is taking its toll on me. The countless sleepless nights is somewhat affecting my mood, and the recent "break-up" incident is only making it worse. My mind's confusing itself with depression and stress; and my yoyo mood swings is not helping at all. Ive not been able to get a proper winks sleep for the past few days, and even if i did, i would only end up waking up to a bad dream or a troubled heart. Talk about being miserable. Sigh. Why cant the heart and the head just be consistent? ..
For the past few days, the routine has been simple. The mind shuts down around 6-ish, i wake up to breakfast around 10, i sleep again till late evening if im not working, and the rest of the day is spent watching tv and slacking around the neighbourhood with friends. My mind is mentally drained out with the lack of sleep i get, and i swear my eyes are having some sort of impairment. Then again, i only have myself to blame for not seeking any treatment. Bugger.
And earlier, while i was hanging out with Brother and friends, he called. And that was only after he received the text message from Brother that he took the initiative to talk to me. Initially Lufty wanted to fuck him upside down, but i came to a conclusion that i wanted a clean closure and hence, took the phone away from him. The conversation was somewhat not a pleasing one, but i managed to add some spice and hurt him back. In your face, suckerrr! Haahaa.
Little did i expect the guy who consider himself matured and sensible, was actually such a coward in disguise, and an immatured and shallow one at that. Muhammad Hisham Bin Ismail, you disgust me! You're such a low life, selfish and heartless jerk; no wonder your ex girlfriend left you, you dumb imbecile! You want my forgiveness; go find your balls and have the guts to face me. I shant say anymore; but there goes your respect and dignity.
There! Ive said it. I didnt think a deeply rooted issue would explode into my consciousness. Fuck with everyone's point of view. Especially to those somewhat related to him. Somehow or rather, im sure language can get in the way to complicate matters. But to hell with it. I need a couple of days to get myself on track again. Just so you know, i made it through this storm; im alright, i survived, and im still alive. And i am soo waaayyy ahead of you.
