sometimes i dont know how to express myself.
and maybe,
just maybe,
because of that,
im always bottling up my feelings
and bursting them out when i've had
ENOUGH.
work was great surprisingly.
i didnt do much.
posted to central station,
and had all the free time in the world.
better still;
i had jesvin and simah with me.
(:
despite the hyperactive and smiling faces,
i was hurting inside.
i felt uneasy.
and yes, you mofuck,
it was because of
YOU!
sometimes i think its best i do not talk about you.
but at the same time,
i cant help but stutter your name.
i wanna delete you from my life,
hell, i want to so badly.
but you refuse.
i dont know what the fuck you want from me.
seriously.
i met up with adam after work earlier on.
i didnt eat at work,
and i was hungry.
but after buying mackerz,
i ended up not eating.
i loss my appetite.
and ended up seeking comfort on adam's shoulders.
im running a temperature of 38.1 degree celcius now.
and i dont wanna head to work tmro.
but my mc rate is high.
FUCK~
i just dont know what to do anymore.
i cried.
am crying.
and still wana cry.
i miss you so fucking badly.
FUCKING BADLY, i say.
