♥ yourwhore. // big fake smiles.

relapse.

I'm sorry for being out of touch. Past week has been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me. Only GOD knows what i was going through. And yes, i'm very thankful that i had my mummy there by my side, supporting me, and giving me encouragement and advise to face it all.

And to HIM, the one with the powers, i thank you for giving me strength and keeping me sane, just when i thought i could not handle them anymore. Words can't replace my heartfelt gratitude. I'm just glad i'm part of this wonderful religion. And you'll forever be in my heart. Ameen.

Nevertheless, i shall blog about it the next time, for i suddenly lost the mood to blog a long post. And i apologise to all for the non reply of smses, and the non returning of calls. I hope you understand. And here's a shout out for few of the most beloved people in my life.

Madi

I tried so hard to forget you; fcuk, i did. But the more i did, the more i missed you. And i know i can't blame you for the relapse, but you gotta know i fell ill cause of you.

Enaby

When my world was colliding, you weren't around. Promise me you'll come back once semester break begins okay!

Deeanna

And to you, my cousie, we've been the bestest of friends since day one. I'm sorry for totally going missing and making you worried. Oh, and i love you too!

Girlfriend

Mia LOVE, i'm sorry for all that has happened. My inflatable ego and the need to run away to seek solitude has put a strain on our friendship and drove us apart. I'm really sorry and just so you know, you did NOT lose your bestie, for i'm still here.

Ellyas Rezzal

WHEN ARE YOU RETURNING, ELLYAS? Your two weeks seems like two months and i just can't wait for your arrival. You're the only one who can keep me sane with your therapeutic talks and i need a dose of it now! And screw them NY pressies, i need your company so badly...

ARGH!

~This is not what I intended

I always swore to you that I would never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed

But I have loved you from the start~

That's it for now.